The Book of Love

I ran into a song today while watching the last episode of Scrubs that was so beautiful to me. I decided to put it on our page. A sort of song of life, love and family. I love my little family very much. They are my all. Just doesn't feel right unless we are all together in our home.

Time just seems to be flying by and they are growing right before my eyes. Mike and I are usually pretty exhausted after a day of work and then an evening with the kids, but even when we do have our date nights we spend the entire time talking about the kids. Mike and I try to imagine what it will be like when they are all grown up and living their own lives and it's hard. It actually makes me sad.

Last night Natalie and Philip slept in our bed. Philip asked so sweetly if he could sleep with us. Of course I said! So he curled up and Nat wanted in the bed too so I lifted her up. They snuggled together and went to sleep right in the middle between Mike and I. It was so sweet. I imagine when Thomas gets a bit older he'll do the same. There have been a few nights where we ALL ended up in the bed by early morning. Those are very rare though since I don't trust Thomas in a big bed yet. He's getting big but still rather little to hold his own with 2 other squirmy kids.

This year was the first year we didn't get Seaworld passes or Zoo passes. Mike and I discussed it and with the Swine Flu being the main news and the economy, we thought we would tone it down this year. We did discuss joining the YMCA. Looks like they have good programs. That would be something we do when a pandemic isn't something on the news. We also discussed swimming lessons. They were so good for me as a child so we want to put all 3 in lessons when it's the right time. When we go to PA this summer, I hope to teach Philip in the indoor pool a few things. We have to get them all safety swimwear. I don't trust any of them in the water just yet.

We've got so much on our calendar right now, I'm a bit overwhelmed. Lots of big things happening in May and June. We haven't had time to go to the La Grange house lately to fix it up. We are down to just a few more projects. We've come so far. I can't wait till we can just sit down and watch a movie and not have anything major on a todo list. I think there will always be projects, our adventures I call them. My life seems to have been divided into chapters and I love this chapter so much. I know I hardly write about Mike since this is a blog about the kids, but I just wanted to write that he's an amazing person, man and husband. I know that sounds a bit corny but he is someone you'd like as a friend for life and I'm lucky to be married to him. I love him with all my heart and I just wanted to proclaim that here on the internet. I promised him my heart, my love, and fidelity on our wedding day and I meant it.

I read somewhere where someone wrote, every relationship you make in life will come to an end. That was so depressing but so true. We do end this world on our own, our own final adventure. One day we will experience the loss of everyone at one point or another. It makes me so sad to think of that. Just makes life feel so short yet so important and something to cherish. I want the kids to have good lives, to grow up to be loved by others and to be happy with what they do. I want to watch them grow up and I want to watch them become adults and have their own families. I want to be a good Mama and I want them to be better than I was as a parent. Their happiness would make me so happy.

Anyways, I think I'm very emotional today. I don't know why. I was just listening to that song, thinking of life and deep thoughts, add in some cheesecake and you have this mess of a blog.

My Family makes me happy.